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4/23/2011

say the F word


                  in this world now, sorry is not enough . saying sorry doesn't make everything back 
                  to normal. i wish it does. i'm sorry i'm not perfect like you wish I would be. 
                  I'm sorry I'm trying to be beautiful but I can't. I'm just fugly. I miss everything in the
                  past. Its all changing in the wrong way . I can't sleep, study and eat like I always do.
                  I can't feel the peace like it used to be.  
                  
                 The way he texted me now, its just different and pain. He talks perfectly fine with his
                 ****. but why not me. for now, i should just shut up and stop texting him. i'm feelin 
                 like i'm his disturbia. i can't lose him. its soo much difficult at time. yes, i should stop 
                 talking to him and just do my things. I don't have to wait for him after school though 
                 he dunno anything about it. and i should nagging at youq about water crisis in Malaysia.
                 I should nagging at the whole class about the windows. I should nagging at Iqa why she
                 is sooo lazy when poooping. ERGHH, i try to make my self feel better. But no I'm not
                 its just hurt, everyday i had to fake a smile and eat ice cream like nothing happens.
              
                 The world never revolves around me, I know Allah is making me a stronger person 
                 everyday. I need time to cry. i realise evertyhing now. 
                  
           

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