Everyone's selfish machine

Today I learnt how selfish can a person could be. even when you are in hand having a noblest job in the world. Well, today's present had make me a very selfish person to think that EVERYONE IS SELLING FISHES. yes, indelibly YES. I made my mind think since the 1M1S Camp 2 days ago. the way everyone act. i can't imagine i'm going to vocational school, there's not even a single person care about me in the hostel. i can't stand my self right now , imagine worst thing could happen there. 

Today MRSM Trankrian held an Open Day. Our skol was invited to see their exhibition and other skols as well. First, I had a very bad stomach ache at skol. Like seriously, I never hurt with that kind of stomach pain. Najihan was not there :( cause she got no one to pick her up from skol. Of she was there, she would help me. At least, My friends are there * sort of *   huh. Thanks for caring my dearest friends :) You guys asked 

" Zam, hang kenapa ? sakit perut ke " and i was like " yup, sakit sangat " . and then "Pi la amik ubat kat cikgu"

and I was like, I can barely walk with my feet, my stomach hurt soo badly. " Sapa2 tolong pegi amik kat cikgu boleh tak "    NOOO ONE HELP !

soo, aku pun gagah pi mintak ubat kt teacher. terkedek2 la, perut aku sakit sangat. aku jalan dengan sengetnya and muka pucat masam. well, i'll try to fake a smile and just raise my hand like a hello sign. So, there i am at Teacher's lab. I asked any meds for stomach pain, minyak apa pn boleh. She said, there's none. tnya cikgu lain. And then, I struggle my self to find cikgu yang bertugas. In front of the lab, about 5 feet from there. It seriously hurt, even ten times than menstruation. I sit down, and cry cause it hurt so much. Until a teacher care to say WHY to me.

and then my stomach is still in pain. I still want to go to MRSM. how idiotic is me. Perut sakit tak sedar diri. cikgu dah cakap, Tak payah la, " nanti perut hang sakit lagi macam mana, hang jangan menangis  "  and i was like FINE. saya tanggung sendiri. And yeaa, I missed the MRSM bus, so pergi dengan cikgu la :) sampai MRSM, apa pn x dpt. LUCKILY, i met my BFF ;) Que . she was kind enough to help me. I'm suppose to visit the exhibition. Well no, its too much pain. i had to rest. I feel like i want to go home so badly, cause it hurt so much. Cikgu dah cakap earlier, kat tempat orang jangan susahkan orang kt tempat orang. Well, DUMB me. For being such a stuborn. So, i think hard to avoid SUSAHKAN cikgu. I called my sis and just inform the teachers. 

the end. how realistic

yeaa, and my so called boyfriend . such a douchebag :P he don't care anywy. i left my bike at skol, and do he care to call wat's up. NO. do he missed me ? NO. He forgot. i hate when this stupid part. when he's gone, there's always big trouble around me and proving that he's not by my side. 

Pleaded

okay, i've planned to do this since last month. but welll, i'm forgetful #forgetmenot. since, it is PMR . so apologize to all people. you need their blessings like seriously. you can't answering your exam while people cursing you or what ever bad thing it is. so, yeahhh. i apologize to that person. i seriously dunno what i did to that person ? okay i guess i was wrong by deleting that person of my friends list but suddenly that person deleted me back. and when i added that person back she refuse to accept. but i did apologize and want to build a new bridge while being the person back on fb. but i dunno whyyy. she refuse to say ;

yeaaa, i forgive you. don't worry hanis. 

i thought mybe, the person didn't online. so i checked out his/her wall. the person talk to someone a min ago. comment, comment stuff yadiyadiyada. that's a shocked like efff yeaaa. is this cause of that person tell something bad about me causing this person above make me want to unforgiving me. yeaa, sometime that old person really make me feel sickkkkk . what is up with you ? are you jealous of me cause i'm bloody perfect and you are not ? Most of all, i know i'm not. but you are telling people my flaws like you dun have one. yes, you are 100000000 a gazillion times perfect than me. your beautifulll , aweesomeee and love by everyone around you. i get it ! so stop disturbing my flaws by telling how bad it is infront of me, you think when you nagg about how bloody perfect you are will make me changee ? nooo ! 

p/s : i don't use any names, so anyone. no offence to anyone who read this.

Talk much

now playing - fuckin perfect by Pink

well, PMR is so bloody close. All candies, i think its too late to study hard as you can, or you will end up in a mental hospital. when the exam day come, you cannot say this anymore " aku tak baca langsung sejarah, aku fokus geo saje, menyesalnya " . if Pre-PMR, Trials and minor exams, you can easily say that. this is the final. the papers is about what you studied for the past 3 years in your secondary school. all you can do is just take a deep breath, don't read too much big notes, read pocket notes and lil exercise. Also, just remind what you mostly forgot.

seriously, my nerves can't explained what i'm feeling right now. my gang say it " STENG gila " not cause i'm not prepared for it but cause i'm scared to meet PMR. what if i don't got 8A's ? my school target me 5A3B and FUCK no its not enough.the principal meet me and said " sekolah target kamu berapa ? " and i was like "5A je cikgu " . yes. obviously i'm offended with the ETR charts of RK. Its like i don't deserve straight A's ! and all the target students been given the royalty. its always about them. All the activities involving them ! not me and few of 3Bs. Instead of giving us moral support and etc. the school its like blaming us for dropping down the school grades. " 3B teruk. 3A1 is better " blablabla. we all tired of being compared. I'm eager to break the 3B tradition. seriously but the class break my heart, there's no " weyh jom study group ".

well, this is what exact same stuff happen to me when i was in elementary school. no one could believe how on earth do i got straight A's . the secret is, cause my friends. they always have moral support and each other we study hard together. now theres thousands of excuses. Yes . indefinitely, i'm not satisfied with my so called friends. I hate them. 

Bieber

today, there's a new fever called as kpop fever. i literally cool with it. i don't have hatred feeling towards korean pop. the problem is those kpop fans. well, most of them are beliebers but suddenly transform to kpop fans. e.g, Cassies, Shineeworld, b2uty, elf. i don't mine actually, but they leaving bieber cause some stupid rumors on internet. i'm totally sick and tired reading your stupid blogpost about bieber. 

well, tell you the truth. bieber tweet this

Why can't Islam be accepting of other people, like Christianity and Judaism?

not this !

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" Why Muslim's Can't be like Christiany"  

theres a lot of different , what he tweeted means why can't islam accept other people religion such as christian and jew. okay how many of you know so much of other people's religion. do you know about Buddhism, Hindu ? know why they can do this or tht ?! its the same to bieber actually. even some muslims are jahil and dunno nothing about islam.  

 i really hate this war . okay you guys keep telling us beliebers are crazy and fanatic. well, look at your self first.  i'm over being crazy beliebers. well, to obsess with something too much is pathetic. i just love him and ador his face and music. actually his song "pray" is about to pray to the people who in need to have god help.  its not about attracting us to his religion. bieber never say "fu*k islam" or hate islam. what is wrong with you guys ? 

much love,

Hanis

Craze

well hello fellas. i'm not hypnotize with all your douche spell to stop doing what i love. but today was just an effiing day. i think Allah is testing me to be very patience and not greed with the essentials knowledge that he gave me. well, for the first time ever in life. i'm failing English for my pre-pmr. I think i got too much ideas to put in one essay. i end up running out of time and all things are done. except it's on a doodle paper. the writings there are pretty much a big mess and my literature essay couldn't make on time to be copied on the proper paper. hellyeahh, my summary is left abandon. I was lacking of time and i didn't stapler it with my other essay. well, i got 27/40 on paper one. well, good bye A. Hello sweet D ;P

i just cried for like 2 hours. and i'm effing tired. tommorow will be Math and Geo. fuck my life . 

Last minute kills you !

Ready set ! I'm about to explode everything bad, Mencarut stuff and etc !  yeahhhh today was a completely fatigue day ! My oh my how pheeeeeweeeyyy was today, okai, apa aku buat. YES i did a last minute job =.= OMGEEE rasa mcm babeng ! GRRRR aku sengaja tak pegi sekolah sbb kerja kursus Sejarah aku tak siap. MAK AII gilaaaaaa ! pagi2 pukul 9 kena hantar folio Din, aku tak expect pn Din akan kena marah dgn CR slash cikgu Rosli dengan teruknya. Aku jamin esok Din tak nak cakap dengan aku and won't be my BFF anymore. and also Teah and Iqa. Practically everyone will hate me tomorrow we'll see. Goshhh, Sayanggg Help me :( i will not have friend tomorrow. 

On the other side, For the first time evaaaahhh in the history of man kind in my life. aku buat kajian yang real. yeahhh cikgu mostly suruh reka sendiri je kn. BUT NOT me this time. 100% from HANIS :) nak tawu kenapa hantar lambat. cause aku tukar tajuk secara mendadak. Aku dah buat folio ni lama dah, then pendrive hilang memang sial. tpi ada la jgk sisa-sisa tajuk FELDA dlm PC. But better yet, aku rsa tajuk ni boring and aku tetiba nk jdi reporter tak bertauliah =.= soo amik tajuk MDK ! ptg tdi pegi interview orang dengan bahasa skema saya ! Yeahh saya ber-encik puan -.- and anih ikut skali and dia taw plan jahat aku ahahahhah,

aku pnggil mak cik indian yang dh beruban MISS ! mesti dia bangga gila. hahah. 

at night, terpaksa la terapkan semua yang aku interview dlm folio =.= tu lahh, aku bajet reporter satu patah haram aku catat aku tak paham. tulisan macam cakar babi . entah apa aku tulis, and kakak tu cakap bkn paham sgt pn. aku agak2 je la, ada la sikit2 boleh masuk and mostly aku ingt, and YEAHHH aku dapat konterversi masalah politik dalam MDK ! ingt senang ke. HANIS je yang boleh dapat ahahahahha. 

Pstu, rumah aku mmng x dak printer dan inknya. sooo pegi kedai. Kedai tu nk tutup dh. dh nk tutup pintu, smpai uncle tu gempaq aku ada org minyak. mmng rsa nak nanges taw dak. auntie tu mcm nk seret aku keluar dh =.= UHHHH, mmng letih gilaaaa ! kayuh basikal mcm org nmpk hantu, actually malam2 aku pegi kedai mmng kayuh mcm tu -.- 

From this, I learnt a very valuable lesson ;
Jangan dok gatai buat kerja last minute ! and
NEVER SAY NEVER haha

p/s : aku balik nk tidoq ja,gmba di ats tak de kena mengena ye, i'm out of tumblr photos. klo aku tido dgn laki aku pn kenapa, tak kacau hidup hang pn. ni blog aku kbai. Sorry aku mencarut