Lemons

sweet tooth ? go to the dentist . i wish life is easy as that and not lemons. all these days, i just keep blaming the life that allah have gave me.

Firman Allah , (this one is always on my head)

Sesungguhnya Allah tidak mengubah nasib kaum itu melainkan dia mengubah nasib dirinya sendiri.

okay . astaghfirullahalazim. yes, aku suka sangat merungut keblakangan ni. but i think i might want to change that attitude and start doing it. but now, I BLOODY HATE MY SISTER !

Pleaded

okay, i've planned to do this since last month. but welll, i'm forgetful #forgetmenot. since, it is PMR . so apologize to all people. you need their blessings like seriously. you can't answering your exam while people cursing you or what ever bad thing it is. so, yeahhh. i apologize to that person. i seriously dunno what i did to that person ? okay i guess i was wrong by deleting that person of my friends list but suddenly that person deleted me back. and when i added that person back she refuse to accept. but i did apologize and want to build a new bridge while being the person back on fb. but i dunno whyyy. she refuse to say ;

yeaaa, i forgive you. don't worry hanis. 

i thought mybe, the person didn't online. so i checked out his/her wall. the person talk to someone a min ago. comment, comment stuff yadiyadiyada. that's a shocked like efff yeaaa. is this cause of that person tell something bad about me causing this person above make me want to unforgiving me. yeaa, sometime that old person really make me feel sickkkkk . what is up with you ? are you jealous of me cause i'm bloody perfect and you are not ? Most of all, i know i'm not. but you are telling people my flaws like you dun have one. yes, you are 100000000 a gazillion times perfect than me. your beautifulll , aweesomeee and love by everyone around you. i get it ! so stop disturbing my flaws by telling how bad it is infront of me, you think when you nagg about how bloody perfect you are will make me changee ? nooo ! 

p/s : i don't use any names, so anyone. no offence to anyone who read this.

Talk much

now playing - fuckin perfect by Pink

well, PMR is so bloody close. All candies, i think its too late to study hard as you can, or you will end up in a mental hospital. when the exam day come, you cannot say this anymore " aku tak baca langsung sejarah, aku fokus geo saje, menyesalnya " . if Pre-PMR, Trials and minor exams, you can easily say that. this is the final. the papers is about what you studied for the past 3 years in your secondary school. all you can do is just take a deep breath, don't read too much big notes, read pocket notes and lil exercise. Also, just remind what you mostly forgot.

seriously, my nerves can't explained what i'm feeling right now. my gang say it " STENG gila " not cause i'm not prepared for it but cause i'm scared to meet PMR. what if i don't got 8A's ? my school target me 5A3B and FUCK no its not enough.the principal meet me and said " sekolah target kamu berapa ? " and i was like "5A je cikgu " . yes. obviously i'm offended with the ETR charts of RK. Its like i don't deserve straight A's ! and all the target students been given the royalty. its always about them. All the activities involving them ! not me and few of 3Bs. Instead of giving us moral support and etc. the school its like blaming us for dropping down the school grades. " 3B teruk. 3A1 is better " blablabla. we all tired of being compared. I'm eager to break the 3B tradition. seriously but the class break my heart, there's no " weyh jom study group ".

well, this is what exact same stuff happen to me when i was in elementary school. no one could believe how on earth do i got straight A's . the secret is, cause my friends. they always have moral support and each other we study hard together. now theres thousands of excuses. Yes . indefinitely, i'm not satisfied with my so called friends. I hate them. 

someday

now playing : who says - selana gomez

my oh my, people will never stop saying bad stuff bout me and will always hating on me. i don't care about that. i don't live to fucking please any of you human. i have a dream and its nothing wrong with that. one day, i would like to be prime minister, i knw how stupid is that. That's why i never quit being the class leader of that class. but now, my classmates are just making me sick. Like seriously, i hate all of them. 3 Bestari is a just a pathetic class and i'm hating it since i'm a part of that class. For everyone fucking information, the only thing that i want from that monitor class 's duty is just an extra mark for co-curriculum.

i don't fucking care about the power that i have to decide everything in the class. its really complicated with the class attitude is like a big pile of shit. i hate to admit sometimes, i really enjoyed my time while learning when you guys making jokes. yea, some other people could not get or laugh at our jokes.

and people execute my ambitions as joke. and i'm desperately want to give up my dreams. Cause i really can't stand people judgement, and yea i remember sis amani saying, "if you can't stand people's critic. don't take MASCOM." that's a new plan :) anywy, i've done one cloth design. I really want to go to sewing class. and i really want to make all my design come true. a perfect gourmet :) someday i'll be, living in a big old city, and all your ever gonna be is mean.  and i'll be like the pic above.

much love,

Hanis